What to do

Just don't know what do do
Fight like hell or should i
Embrace what's making me
So sick
Sleepless nights to face.

The day you left me
My confidence my sweet
Self esteem that's killing
So tired
Pain, my dearest friend.

Make it go away
Medicine, dear dreamless sleep
Strenghten my body, heart
my mind
Clear blood through my veins

Just don't know what to do
Do what i do best or should i
Take my mask off that
Protects me
Where have i gone?